I never can seem to study for a midterm without taking a silly online break to post in my tabulas. I mean, when else do I really post?

So I've been sitting here for the past 2-ish hours trying to do the online portion of my biochem midterm, and I gotta say, I don't know what the crap I'm doing. My prof is retarded. Why is he assigning us this junk if he's not gonna guide us in how to use them silly programs? It's all a bunch of blabber to me. On a side note, I see my friend Michael walking by. He's taking this ridiculous class with me, and foo' he's not studying! I should bug him later about this online thing.

 

Anyway, what has been up with me so far?

Let's see.

• My housing situation for next year is so sudden and geez, it is really different from my original plans. :B So I guess I'm living with Kristine and Jenny.
  
• I went to Warren Semiformal and I do believe it would've been a lot lot better if stupid frat APO didn't steal all my asian friends away for their lameo clubbing event. Plus, the venue's photography made me believe the place was a lot bigger than it really was. So deceiving! I'm sure it was still 100 times better than Marshall's semiformal.
  
• The students I tutor think I'm hecka weird and asian. I'm not sure if that's a good thing, but I still enjoy helping them. Plus, they're quick to judge. One of them called me a 'bad tutor' because I couldn't recall the definition of molality on the spot. Who works with molals anyway. psh.
  
• And oh! I ran into my old model suitemate OC. Saw her in a few commercials recently. I'm glad she's back at school though. :]
• Oh yeah, I realized how little I've been eating again. I don't know what's wrong with me, but I'm never hungry. :[ I feel like throwing up, too, but I know there's nothing in my stomach to actually throw up.
  

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So I found the 'quiet' part of Geisel. It's warm here, too--not like the other place I was at.

I think this location might replace my old favorite spot.

Sometimes the only thing you need. . is to start the day off on the right foot. And if or when things go wrong, you remind yourself that a good day doesn't have to be one full of expectations. Rather, it is the simple pleasure of appreciating life in its blessings.

 

. . . now if only I could keep this mentality up. It's hard.
I hope you have a good day.

So life hasn't exactly been the greatest as of late. Even though a short time has past since last quarter it seems as though everything is so different than what it was just a few months ago. I guess that's to be expected since one can never really predict what happens in their life. Sometimes it may not seem like the best thing in the short run, but it may end up being a good thing in the long run. So for everyone who's feeling down over whatever situation that is happening in their lives, just know that it's just another obstacle that we have to overcome.

So apparently there are a lot of interesting things about food that people didn't actually know. Here are just some of the few:

1) Like that artificial coloring in your juice every morning called carmine comes from crushed little bugs, don't believe it check it online and type in carmine food coloring.
2) There is no such thing as vegetarian gelatin.
3) Bird's nest soup, although expensive have some ingredients that most people rather not eat if they actually knew what was in there.
4) And apparently the world is supposed to end in 2012 according to the Mayan calendar.

Do you think Keira Knightley is cute or pretty?

Finding an apartment in La Jolla is difficult and stressful. It's not that there aren't any around. There are plenty. It's just that you don't want to pay for the ones that are available.

 

Anyway, after calling in for many, many days to International Gardens, and finally hearing that a spot was open, we rushed off within the next five minutes to get it. Prime location, super close to the laundryroom and everything else. :D
So I want to say . . .  HAHA (cus i'm bitter) to those girls right before us who said they'd "think about it". :] cus we stole'd it. har har.

And I know International Gardens charges more than the townhouse we were interested in before, but that townhouse needed some major TLC. Besides, when was the last time you saw tacky brown and yellow linoleum tiles in the bathroom? THE 70s. Yeah. Plus there were weird holes in the wall that the owner clearly wasn't gonna fix up. And the fireplace was hideous. Might as well not even have one. And that place was a decent walk to the shuttle. And right by the big street--not that I mind big street because it's still a lot quieter than my house at home. :B IN ANY CASE, we didn't take it.

 

Anywho, International Gardens . . WATCH OUT, cus I'm movin' in. :D

Yeah . . .

Whenever things go wrong, my first instincts are to run away. Well that's exactly what I did this past weekend, and let me be one to tell you-- it didn't help. Having a mini vacation away from school is nice, of course, but I always seem to create more problems by avoiding my old ones and by simply being in another environment. If only leaving my issues were as simple as abandoning your couches in the alleys.

 

 

In any case, look at what I found online :0. I wasn't supposed to save these images seeing that everything was blocked off, but I'm a haxxor and stole'd it D:

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When I heard the lineup for this year's Sungod, I was kind of let down.
Sean Kingston is seriously whatever to me. And Coheed . . yeah. They sound the same after five minutes. Must be his high pitched voice. If I wanted to hear a high pitched singer go on for like an hour, I can just sing to myself.

 

But I still attended this year's Sungod because I'd feel like a loser otherwise. I mean, most of my tuition money does go to this silly event. I still think the entire day is kind of annoying, but that's probably just me because everyone else loves it.

 

And oh, for anyone who ever thought of attending a Sean Kingston concert. Well, he's a horrible performer. :D The foolio doesn't sing. He blasts his songs in the background and occasionally mutters a word or two, or he says "put your hands up" and does a weird move. If he ever does sing along, the base becomes louder -- probably to block out his screechy voice. lol. dunno how to even respond to it. Oh well. At least I can say I went

So here's one of my ritual pre-midterm ramblings about things just going on in my head.

 

I am saddened about the idea of school ending so soon. True I hate it here, but it's crazy how it's ending so fast and how I'll quite possibly never see some people again. Makes me wish I made more of an effort to be a better friend. :/


I believe I tutor at one of the greatest schools.
No. I don't even have to believe it. I know it. Preuss is now rank 6th in the Nation for best high school. Yeah, believe it. I know they're really close to rank 5, but far from 4. It's okay, because if you seriously look at the backgrounds of my students -- disadvantaged, lower class first generation students --, you'll realize what an accomplishment this is. These kids are amazing.

Did I mention how much I hate Nitrogen, amines, enamines, imines, and everything about nitrogen? I can never write the mechanisms relating to nitrogen or tell how many stupid hydrogens are attached, how many lone pairs there are, if it's lacking anything, when it has a charge blah blah. Perhaps I'm just sloppy, or I just don't get it. But still, Nitrogen has to be one of the most annoying elements out there since it's so versatile and breaks all these rules. roar to you, Nitrogen.
And oh! Sugars are lame. I don't see what's so fascinating and 'beautiful' about these molecules. Sorry Professor Finn, I guess I don't really appreciate science. :[ Back to studying my be.(love).d Ochem.

I knew it was a bad omen the moment I stepped out today and got rained on.

 

I believe I didn't do so well on my ochem midterm. Now I know I always come out of a test unconfident, but I'm pretty good at predicting my scores and I honestly believe I didn't do so well. Totally studied for the wrong things. Where the heck was my Claisen??? What about your favorite mechanisms and sugar chemistry problems, Finn? Grrrr. If you emphasize something in class, don't you think you should put it in your test? Lame!

And oh, I really don't like eighth graders. The eighth grade advisory class I was working on my project in was simply horrible. Not only were they punks and threw trash at me and my students, but they stole a variety of new sharpie markers that Ms. Biersbach bought for the class to use. Dont' they realize that my 10th grade students and I are much larger than they are and can beat them up? Gosh. They can act all innocent, but they were the only kids to could've taken them since I left them unattended for like five minutes. What brats. Now I feel really guilty for the loss of Ms. Biersbach's supplies.

Out of sheer desperation to get home this Memorial Day weekend, I believe I asked just about everyone who was remotely in the LA area about how they were getting back. If they had rides, I asked to bum. If they were going to take the train, I would've hopped on with them. If they were just gonna go home, I was gonna ask my dad to pick me up at the person's house. I think I considered every kind of option, but it was still impossible to find a way back. I really didn't want Jenny to drive me alllllll the way back and she have to make a turn back to Cerritos at like 2 in the morning. That would be horrible. :[
I knew that staying at school was not an option since I needed to get my old high school chemistry stuff for mi proyecto, so I was determined to find a way back.

Because of my crappy options, I even asked my sister's ex-boyfriend's friend, who might I add, I've never met before in my life. Yeah. That's a pretty bad way to have a connection to someone. I do believe that was probably my silliest idea, but dude, I was desperate. I figured the dude couldn't be so bad since he was probably a boyscout and like, although my sister's ex hates her, he still likes me and looks out for me. And I know he could drive since he's a shuttle driver. Still awkwardturtle.

 

Then, miraculously I remembered I had a dopey long lost cousin/uncle who lives in a neighboring city and goes to school with me. In any case, he managed to find a ride for me and I am sooooooooo thankful for that.
Gosh Khiem, I keep forgetting that you exist in my life, and I'm sorry for that. I'm just glad I found out that we're relatives before any other relationships could have formed.

 

 

 

Oh yeah, I just wanted to mention that I finished my physics quiz in record time today. Fifteen minutes! :D Never thought that was going to happen, but if you ask me how to do the problems, I can't answer you because I quarter-assed it. Not even half-ass. ho ho ho. I do want to say I got 8/10 right though. We'll see.

 

And oh, I forgot my daddy's birthday. D: I baked a cake for him when I got back though. I'm a bad daughter.

Soooo . . . . my car broke down today.

haha

I shouldn't be laughing, I really shouldn't. 

We were going to my aunt's place to pick up some stuff and we were almost there you know, but that red light stopped us! When we started moving again, though, we heard the ugliest sound and that obviously wasn't good. Then the car just shut down completely. Yup. So there we were in the middle of a somewhat busy street.

 

Now although it sucks butt that the car stopped working, I'm going to say that I am really glad that it happened when it did, because if that happened during the daytime tomorrow (since we'd probably go somewhere tomorrow too), it would reallllllly suck since the streets are hecka busy tomorrow. That timing belt was gonna break down eventually right?

The only reason why this is a sad event is because my daddy was extremely sad that all of his hard work changing the belt 2 weeks ago was a failure. I'm sure I'd be upset too.

 

 

Anywhoooooo, I got to ride a tow truck. :0000 Very bumpybumpy but cool since you're hecka high upppp. I was afraid of the driver's wife though. :[ I thought she was gonna beat me up.  

Ever work super hard to get somewhere only to find out that it was all for nothing? Yeah.

I hate it. roarrrrrrrrrrr.

 

I worked supersuper hard to get home, calling people I'd never want to. Getting back to school was a problem, too, so I had to call on the worst person possible. MY AUNT. That woman who got married and didn't even invite my family because she hates us that much. Out of sheer desperation, and well, not wanting to rely on buses on Memorial Day to get me to Cerritos . . I had to call her.

 

But in any case, I came home for some old Chemistry papers to help me with my tutoring project. The only thing is that, well, I can't find it.

 

 

On the other hand, I found a ton of junk I had shoved away everywhere and it was weird seeing it all again. Stuff like old photos, gifts, and books and this just made me think . . wow. People do not know me at all.

It's kind of sad seeing how I treated the gifts I didn't like that people gave me . . . all shoved away and smushed up in a closet. You know, those gifts I tried to hide because they were ridiculous or simply scary looking and would give me nightmares. True I favor my specific few stuffed animals, mainly my steeyore, sparticus, bear and my other bear, but that doesn't mean I'll like anything else. I dunno. It is interesting, though, to see how people perceive me and try to get me stuff I'll like even though they were farrrrr off. I can only imagine how my face looked when I received those gifts--you know trying to look like I wasn't scared out of my mind and actually happy.

Anywho, although I couldn't find my old chem notes, I did find this old SAT II Chemistry prep book that's actually pretty useful for my project. I obviously didn't buy it because I didn't want to waste monies on something like that, but my old best friend's mom did. I tried to give the book back to Jenny, but she had her own and wouldn't take mine back. It's funny how her mom loved me so much and would spend so much on ridiculous books for me. But I guess when you're rich and have nothing better to do, you shop for your daughter's best friend. :D AND THANKS

I've decided to let my screenname JnnCut go on hiatus.

It's not that I don't like JnnCut. I really do considering it was my very first, but I'm just tired of it. I am also really mean when I'm using it. I reply hecka slowly, on purpose sometimes too, just because I don't feel like talking. What's the point of even being on if I won't respond?

I also have like a million people blocked, and well, that's just not nice. Of course, my swapping to another name for a bit is still technically avoiding the people, I'll feel less mean if I unblock them and virtually keep myself with an alternate route.

And it's not that I hate everyone. No way. I'm sure I'll be messaging the people I'm not tired of yet. And I love how my students found my sn just to yell at me for making tricky review questions. It makes me smile.

 

 

In EDS the other day, we had to do a quickwrite about whether there was a time when you truly hated/liked school. I started scribbling down everything and unfortunately for me, we had to swap papers with someone and comment on what they had to say. Adam, one of the weirdest guys in my class, got my paper, and all he could say was, "You are a very angry girl."
Thanks
But I guess I really am.

 

I don't know, but all I can say is goodbye to JnnCut for a while. I'll still be on . . if you know where to find me.