+ Monday, November 16, 2009 (PV's 22nd Bday)
I stayed home and did not head back to RI on Sunday. I did this because I have a fin. assoc. ny trip that will be meeting in NY on Tuesday. Also since I did not feel so well my mother advised me to extend my stay for a day. I'm missing out on a thank you dinner with co-workers and bosses at a Mexican (my fav food) restaurant tonight. This past weekend I missed out on three birthday (RP, PV, and JO's) celebrations :/ and a big school performance but oh well I had a dentist appointment on Sunday and it was nice to spend some time with my family. One more week and then thanksgiving break. So excited to be free from classes, hw, and exams for a bit~ On Wed, I have another interview for a sales job, and on Thursday I have a Entr. Fin exam (2nd one), then on Friday I'm going to watch Twilight -New Moon and on Saturday I'm going to be eating JW fresh cooked meal :D!

Today was a beast of a day. Here's what I completed: MKT part 2 assignment (turn in), fin case (make edits and send to group members and have them turn it in),  fin hw (send to professor),  bus case study (send to professor and turnitin.com). Other: ordered stuff for b/f, uncle, DS & KL (bosses that gave me recommendations), fixed clocks around the house, washed dishes, attempted to set up mail box.

I watched two movies: Australia (kind of enjoyed it), and Nights in Rodanthe (I didn't like this that much).

The leonid meteor shower 2009 is tonight starting at 1am I hope I see something.

Tomorrow, I'm going on what feels like a undergrad field trip lol.

+ Tuesday, November 17, 2009
Dang. Missed out on RP's 21st bday dinner w/ my suitemates.
Mother found me my swim bottoms for my red bebe swimsuit. Isn't it amazing how happy you are to find lost items. o_o;;

I tried to find how much I owed to EN but I couldn't find where I placed the receipts so I'm hoping to find them over thanksgiving break >_>;; I'm going to start to make a list in case I don't remember V_V;;

I also have to finish my mkt hw (*edit* completed most of it on the bus) and study for my fin exam.

This week is painfully difficult to deal with. I feel like I've been "on" since Sunday and haven't quite had much of a break yet. I hope it gets better soon but I'm glad I feel like I'm accomplishing a lot.

Went on the finance trip we went to the Museum of American Finance and the Federal Reserve of NY. I didn't realize that Hamilton created U.S. mint, Customs, Coastal Guard, tax system, and central bank? They have 7000 tons and $190B worth of gold down under the NY Fed. Then ate at Cabana in Seaport had a Strawberry Daiquiri and Salmon ($32). I also didn't know that Bank of Italy was renamed to Bank of America.

ML said that he didn't want to go to @R that much anymore b/c it was becoming too costly. So he called me tonight to ask if I was going b/c he wanted to? I kind of want to go today b/c I want to see who wins Miss Hi-Neighbor but my guess would be LG b/c she's seems to have like natural beauty that would make her look good as a pin-up but that's just my opinion b/c her body type is not necessarily exactly pin-up material but I think she's a really pretty girl. If we (me, ML, and his friends) then i'll find out... *edit* Went to @R w/ ML, CR, JL, KG, PV, DR, and RP -turns out my friend KG (JL's g/f) was a contestant but she unfortunately didn't win but at least she made it to the second round.
Need to: send thank you letters to interviewers,  and itemize list of owe.

+ Wednesday, November 18, 2009
Had an interview at 9-9:30pm it actually lasted for an hour then I went to class from 10-11am, worked from 11-12pm, then completed homework, went to class from 1-2pm, worked from 2-4:30pm, went to see professor about the exam tomorrow from 4:30-5:30pm, walked back to my roomto drop off stuff, went to event to see J(C)L perform (sing) and it lasted till like 10:30pm. She slept over so we talked till 12am, then I went over to ML's and slept from 1:30 to 2am, studied from 2-4:30am, slept, woke up at 7:40ish, studied some more later on and to take my exam...

+ Thursday, November 19, 2009
Did horrible -don't think I could've done any better with studying though -_-;; So glad that there's only some assignments. I really wanted to go out tonight but *sigh*. I'm going to try to get started on two homework assignments before they're do so that I can complete it prior to Thanksgiving break and don't have to even think about it...

Okay so Hooter girl gossip is interesting.

Apparently Erika, the girl I got hired with, isn't doing too hot in the serving department. This concerns me, because the other girls are judging her performance and reporting it back to the managers. "She's not ready to be on the floor." I do not want this to happen to me, especially hearing it from Liana who I've grown to respect, a great deal. Her personality and style is perfection, she has a class and sophistication, as well as professionalism, that many of the 20 year old CT's can't match.

I'm scared of not doing well. With these tables, it's all in my hands. I need to get my spiel down. I need to get more confidence. I need to get my shit together. Which is why this entry won't be longer, I'm going to go study.

Training so far, has been quite intimidating.

+ Monday, November 9, 2009
Been feeling more tired than usual lately. Kept saying that my period should be coming but I'm not all too sure.

+ Tuesday, November 10, 2009
Woke up around 5am to get my current event presentation and memo done. Then studied up very briefly about this company prior to my interview. The man I interviewed w/ was really nice and the position dealt with sales -an area I'm not honesty entirely sure if I would want to do. He kind of reframed lack of experience as a positive because post grads are more impressible and are not taught certain bad habits that other people may be accustomed to that become harder to change with time. Later, I went to @R w/ ML, CR, JL, KG, PV, CA, & DR. I wanted to try a Strawberry Daiquiri but they didn't have it so I ended up getting "Tropical Delight" which was pretty tasty anyway.

Addicted to Farmville -played for like the past 5 days. I'm only at level 15, and I'm about 10 grand from expanding my farm. Why is this exciting? I don't know. >_<

+ Wednesday, November 11, 2009
Studying for Thursday. Took the ETS exam (mandatory for seniors) and I got a 171 on it with a SEM (standard error measurement) of 4.7. ML got a 179, I heard that JL got like a 180 or something on it. MS (my suitemate) told me she got a 170 on it. I'm surprised because I thought I'd do horribly on it but I did okay and I'm happy because I could use the grade boost. "For those who score in the top 20% nationally (raw score of 166 or above), you will automatically receive a letter grade increase in your final grade for this course (B+ to A-, or B- to B).  For those who score in the bottom 10% nationally (raw score of 141 or below), you will automatically receive a ? letter grade decrease in your grade for this course (A- becomes a B+, or B+ becomes a B)." PV apparently scored below -I heard that he didn't finish a section but I don't think he really cares anymore lol.

+ Thursday, November 12, 2009
Took my finance exam. So angry at myself for not paying attention to the MC that everyone e-mailed out rwar! B/c I got like 5MC wrong that I could've gotten right >_> *sigh* well, what can you do?

+ Friday, November 13, 2009
I donated $2.30 (23 lids) for Yoplait save lids to save lives. Today I skipped my classes and did not have to work so I went home. For whatever reason, I was really crabby on my way getting there but I was much happier upon arrival. My brother and I at Korean BBQ. It was our usual delicious dinner. He paid for that ($52). I paid for Pinkberry dessert ($6-9). He paid for mother's food ($8-10). I paid for our train tickets home ($18.50).

+ Saturday, November 14, 2009
I got my period today. I feel shitty now -it's like dehabilitating? :/ especially since I feel like there's things to do but I haven't got around to doing any of them yet. I might have to put things on the backburner b/c of my flow ><.

Today ate out at a new Chinese/Japanese restaurant with my brother and mother. It was $74.95 and I ate the crispy red snapper and it was delicious ;O! I watched One Fine Day (okay) and The Painted Veil (I enjoyed this). I realized how much I liked Edward Norton in the movie.

Later, my mother helped purchase a black business suit top ($40?) for me and shoes ($27) from Macys. She also shared with me a good lesson that most people overthink. Most of the crap we keep around is garbage/trash (I also remember this lesson in the movie Labyrinth) in that we don't need a lot but we may be focused on it that we overlook the important things in life. My mother mentioned a man who bought one shirt/jacket and wore it until it broke and then threw it out and bought another one. Her point was that there's no point in purchasing something you won't use and if you do purchase or receive something you ought to use it instead of saving it up because you may have outgrown it by the time you ever do go around to using it.

I guess/know I definitely kind of do that. I buy items I think are gorgeous but I hardly ever wear them. I may use the excuse that I don't have time to wear them but in the end I guess I am only playing myself. Therefore, I'm going to do my best to utilize everything that I have or otherwise alter, sell, donate, or trash whatever else.

+ Sunday, November 15, 2009
Went to the dentist today for a teeth cleaning. He told me that I should consider putting a crown over one of the inner molars. This bothers me because it's like approximately $600 ($200 for removal) since it's not covered under my insurance. Mother also took me around to buy pants and a top for the suit (since all my stuff is in RI)

I started thinking about relationships today. Anyway, I didn't see a point in preserving a relationship when in the end (whether or not you're married) because there is a likelihood of being replaced. The possibility of you becoming old and when your boyfriend or husband starts to look for something young and new. I claimed that I thought it was sad b/c you're investing all this emotion and energy into the relationship and for it to come to that in the end. ML said that he's enjoyed everything and he doesn't view it as an investment. He says that an investment means that something won't necessarily turn out the way you have hoped and that you're regretting in the end because you've received less than you've put in. (This is changed so I doubt it's exactly how he phrased it) I suppose that's right. Why can't I live in the moment and just fully enjoy everything? Why am I so concerned and worry about things that are irrelevant of which I have no control over. I suppose it's because I have no control over these things that concerns me the most because I am powerless and can't do nothing about them.

I realize I can't prioritize and I need to bring myself to change that too >_>;;

I give in.  I still think that if it was shot in color it should stay color, but sometimes I just can't decide.  In this case, I think monochrome is better. 

Robert oh now your ignoring me eh? 6:31pmDestiny I had to make soup and no i have not I don't like paying for movies only if a boy takes me 6:32pmRobert classy lady i miss you when i come visit 6:32pmDestiny Yeah one who hasn't seen a movie in a while lol 6:32pmRobert wanna go see a movie? 6:32pmDestiny You're visiting??!!! And of course! 6:32pmRobert in a month or two or less 6:32pmDestiny woohoo!!! 6:32pmRobert its gonna be a surprise well go out to dinner and laugh laugh 6:33pmDestiny well december 19th is my birthday 6:33pmRobert 6:33pmDestiny it could be a birthday surprise!!! 6:33pmRobert hmmmm i just might do that... gonna put it in my calender right now 6:34pmDestiny 6:34pmRobert so are you dating anyone? how are things with aaron? you guys still talk? 6:35pmDestiny well... it's more like... He knows how passionately I feel about him so he avoids me.. hahaha. I mean, like I asked him to avoid me if he wasn't going to be serious although he texted me on Friday randomly, he was drunk. I guess it's nice to be thought of. However he's just... a hot mess. 6:36pmRobert ahhh no matter your a fucking rockstar everyone knows it animals know it 6:36pmDestiny :DDDDD 6:36pmRobert people in chicago think your a hott mess they tell me "that girl is fucking hottt" girls and guys 6:37pmDestiny LOL! 6:37pmRobert i just laugh although its true. 6:37pmDestiny I had to tag you in that photo of liz and I We were all spicy and such for halloween 6:38pmRobert i loved it i didnt know what to say! 6:38pmDestiny hahahaha you were in the middle of us, like our little love child, buwhaha 6:39pmRobert i just wanna live in there!!! build a little kitchen and cook juevos and chorizo and read children stories to my stuffed animals next to a roaring fire 6:39pmDestiny Hahahahaha I love it 6:40pmRobert i gotta take another shot brb 6:42pmDestiny 6:43pmRobert were going to a bar. this guy wants to get me REALLY drunk for some reason I love you so much ill talk to you soon 6:43pmDestiny mmkay! have fun! be safe 6:46pmRobert not leaving just yet so i came back 6:46pmDestiny lol:D Are you guys walking?? 6:47pmRobert yeah i live in like pb but in chicago 6:47pmDestiny hahahaha awesome! that sounds sick. what did you take shots of?? i'm jealous. being sick and not drinking SUCKS. 6:48pmRobert 99 black cherries 6:48pmDestiny never heard of those...

Next week. I am so fucking excited.

Finally, after a year of bullshit at the lob, I get down to the nitty gritty at Hooters.

... <3 YAYYYYYY

PS HALLOWEEN WEEKEND WILL BE EPIC! <3

I'm not big on foreplay. I like it hard and rough. And I like to feel dominated. I like names, slapping, biting, massaging, and hair pulling. And moaning is my favorite

1. Christopher Allard aka Chris: lost my virginity to him. Record - 7 times, one day. Pros: Amazing passion, fast, hard, and agile - able to recover quickly. Cons: Small. Not many other complaints... he just knew what to do with me after so long.
2. Edoardo Quevedo aka Ed: the first guy I kissed. Completely friends with benefits relationship. Have known him the longest out of all my sexual partners, 2006. Pros: He's huge. He likes to experiment, down for different places. Cons: He's too into foreplay. Has to get a BJ before we hook up. 
3. Johnathan Gilbreth aka John: Two times. He couldn't get it up all the way both times. Pros: Decent foreplay. Cons: LIMP. Not that big. Close friend of Chris'. Ugh.
4. Brian Hanesana: dependable, sort of used him to get over Chris. Pros: Experienced, large, and kinky. Cons: Uncircumcised. Lasted wayyy too long, sore and swollen many times after. Would sweat a lot after our hour and a half long sessions. Ridiculous.
5. Raymond Bonander aka Ray: Physically very attractive to me (except his legs), had the softest hair I've ever touched, and had a gentle caress... yeee. Pros: He played seduction well, knows exactly what positions to do with me, foreplay wasn't extensive. Cons: Not as sexually deviant, sexual appetite far lower than mine, not very large, didn't last for a long time.
6. Brandon Clark - one nighter: Pros: He was massive. He lifted me up like I was nothing. Cons: He has a gf hahaha. And I wasn't that physically attracted to him, although everyone else was.
7. Aaron Kunst aka Ginger: ... the best sex I've ever had. Pros: He's well endowed. He's talented, knows angles, knows depth range, knows EFFECTIVE foreplay tricks, lasts a long time. Cons: Uncircumcised, always wants a blow job, he's arrogant and will tease til the point of frustration.
8. Rhett Crockett - one nighter: regret, has a gf, skank. Pro: Large. Cons: Everything else. Ugliest guy I've hooked up with. It's his height that got me.
9. Thibault Palomares aka T-Bo: Marine. That should sum it up. Pros: Huge, strong. Cons: Slut.
10. Frank Patton - one nighter: Pros: Sweetheart. Cons: Limp.
11. Max Roemer: so far, just once. Pros: Buffest guy I've hooked up with. Sensitive, sweet, caring. Cons: Seems kinda lazy in the sac. Decent sized.